Sorrows Underneath

I think of all my problems,
I think of all my pains,
I think of all my sorrows,
Until I go insane.

I think of all the smiles I've worn,
Which hide sorrows underneath.
Noone seems to notice,
That I go through so much grief.

My tears seem to keep following,
Inside my tired eyes.
Each time I want to tell you,
My words come out as lies.

These days i'm feeling distant,
Far away and weak.
My sadness pulls me further,
From the happiness i seek.

I've just begun to realize,
That my hopes and dreams are gone,
I'm walking down a dead-end road,
Humming a tuneless song.

I'm standing on a rooftop,
Although I'm scared of heights,
I'm watching the cars beneath me move,
And somehow this doesn't feel right.

Now I think of what I'm doing,
I know I should find a way,
To beat through my depression,
Will I be able to someday?

Someone might be there,
To help me make it through,
Maybe they will listen,
And tell me what to do.

I'm seeing through the darkness,
And I'm starting to trust a few,
I think I'll try to make it,
So I can be there for them, too.

When someone special leaves you

Days pass by somehow,
But nights now are a wagon of pain.
Injuries may heal with time,
But marks will always remain.
Restless on my comfortable bed,
I toss and turn and try to sleep.
But thoughts are bulking my head,
And have formed a huge heap.
The past is flashing its scorching light beams,
Tearing me apart, breaking me at the seams.
The darkness of my life is more visible in the dark,
And now I am trying to give it a voice, trying to speak my heart. 

When You Are in Love

When distances got you,
But you still hold on.
When boundaries limit you,
But you still move on.
You are in love.

When the thought of losing someone,
Gives you shivers.
When there is no space,
For fears.
You are in love.

When you find perfectism,
In imperfectism.
When everything around you,
Is bout to satisfaction
You are in love.

When you wait willingly,
When you hide and show simultaneously.
When you feel happy and sad at the same time,
When you hold on and let go at the same time.
You are in love.

When you feel that,
You are living two lives at the same time.
When your name gives rise to another,
At all times.
You are in love.

When everything inside you is beyond measures or words.
When you got endless prayers.
When you say without thinking.
When you know without hearing.
You are in love.

When hearing a name,
Makes your day forever.
When there’s a hope,
Of growing old together.
You are in love.

When you find happiness,
In someone’s smile.
When you feel ready to give away something special,
That you kept with you for quite a while.
You are in love.
You are in love, my dear.
You are in love.

All I Wnt is You

I don’t want flowers,
Red, yellow or blue…
I don’t want diamond,
I know other girls do…
And I don’t want money,
I’ve seen what money can do…
All I want is you…
All I want is you…
All I want is you… 

A Poem for Girls

Find a guy, who calls you beautiful instead of hot.

Who calls you back when you hang up on him.

Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.

Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.

Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.

Who holds your hand in front of his friends.

Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.

Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her."

A Confession

I was watching you sleep the other day,
And prayed that it would last.
The peace that rested on your face,
I’d never seen in the past.

I was watching you speak a while ago,
And hoped that you’d go on.
The way your words, they had no end,
Your spirit seemed so strong.

I was watching you fight the other day,
And prayed my tears would dry.
All this I knew was done for me,
And couldn’t figure why.

I was watching you smile a while ago,
And stared in total awe.
Was it me who made you shine?
Was that triumph that I saw?

And all this time you’ve waited,
And all this time you’ve helped.
And all the things you sacrificed,
For me to grow up well.

And all the tears you dried,
And all the pain you soothed.
And all the truths you had to hide,
Without a simple thank-you.

But I was watching you the other day,
And I realized I can’t wait.
To tell you how much I appreciate,
And love you in every way.

You And Me

I never thought I’d find myself,
The day I found you.
Plans for only one of me,
Are future plans for two.
Souls mates in the universe,
That makes the world surreal.
For when I’d given up on dreams,
You showed me love is real.
And now that all my love for you,
Will never cease to grow.
Please take me in your loving arms,
And never let me go.

Remember me Always

So many memories we’ve made together
As the years have slowly passed.
Tears may have been cried
But our laughter drowned them all out.
Sharing my deepest most secrets 
Till one in the morning at your house.
Talking forever about things.
Until our words just ran out.

But now you must leave,
And I stay behind.
Who will I call
When I just need to talk?
Who will you lean on
When your problems weigh you down?
Who will laugh at my jokes?
Who will make you smile?

I can’t tell you the answers 
To the questions I have.
But I want you to know
I will always love you as my friend.
And when your heart is troubled,
I want you to think of me.
Remember the times of joy
We have shared
And may be it will make you smile.
And smile you can’t take me with you,
Take the memories we’ve made
And cherish them
As I always will.

My Brilliant Friend

My dearest friend, you’ve left me,
Standing all alone.
My body’s numb with sorrow,
I don’t know my way home.

I’m lost depressed and frightened,
For you’re not here with me.
And somewhere deep inside my heart,
My friend, you’ll always be.

I know you couldn’t help it,
And you didn’t want to go,
But nonetheless you left me,
Sad and all alone.

Although I have my parents,
And other friends so close,
I don’t know why it is,
But I love you, friend, the most.

Your kindness into others,
Has washed up onto me,
You helped me out when times were tough,
And to helped to make me see.

You have been so good to me
And as I let you go,
I know you were a true friend,
And for that I love you so.

For as long as I can recognize,
You’ve helped me to be strong,
And given me the courage and faith,
To keep on moving on.

So with my sad and heavy heart,
This part comes to an end.
But I’ll not say good-bye,
You’ll always be my friend.

I'll be missing you

You are so full of life,
Always smiling and carefree.
Life loved you being a part of it,
And I loved you being a part of me.

You could make anyone laugh,
If they were having a bad day.
No matter how sad I was,
You could take the hurt away.

Nothing could ever stop you,
Or even make you fall.
You were ready to take on the world,
Ready to do it all.

But God decide he needed you,
So from this world you left.
But you took a piece of all of us,
Our hearts are what you kept.

Your seat is now empty,
And it’s hard not to see your face,
But please always know this,
No one will ever take your place.

You left without a warning,
Not even saying good-bye.
And I can’t seem to stop;
Asking the question why.

Nothing will ever be the same,
The halls are empty without your laughter.
But I know you’re up in heaven,
Watching over us and looking after.

I didn’t see this coming,
It hit me by surprise.
And when you left this world,
A small part of us died.

I remember you swinging from the hayloft ropes,
When you were just a boy.
And the last time I saw you,
You were driving your pride and joy.

Your smile could brighten anyone’s day,
No matter what they were going through.
And I know everyday for the rest of my life,
I’ll be missing you!!!

Living Without You

I keep looking in all places,
Where you are supposed to be.
But I never seem to find you,
And you’re all I long to see.

I just can’t seem to understand,
What it was that changed your mind.
All this time I thought I knew you,
When really, I was blind.

But I know that I do not hate you,
And I know I never will.
Because I cared about you then,
And I care about you still.

Even though you hurt me,
I can’t seem to let you go.
But I will go on without you,
And I want to make sure you know.
 

In Love

This feeling overwhelms me
A welling of the heart
I never truly thought I would be
This happy at the start

You take me by the hand
And lead me by the heart
Over a beach of sand
Through the grasses that we part.

With you I let go
Of intvition and sound mind
My feeling I cannot help but show
To a person who is so kind.

You kiss my lips so tender
Embrace me through the night
To you I have surrendered
Myself so hold on tight.

So strongly you hold my hand
Whisper softly in my ear
I really feel that you understand
Everything you hear.

I lose myself in you
This close I’ve never been
These feelings are so new
To have a lover who’s my friend.

My secret in silence

You came into my life
Quietly, simply, placidly
And my words stood still…

I couldn’t express in words
Or even in simple gestures
The secret I kept in my heart.

So I loved you in silence,
Admired you from a distance,
Dreamt of you from afar.

I wanted to say I love you…
I wanted to say I care.
But cowardly, maybe, you’ll only laugh at me.

In silence then I will love you…
In silence then I will care.

I HOPE

I hope you surf the waves in from the ocean,
Big and small.
I hope you watch the sunset,
From the mountains straight and tall.

I hope you sing the song to all the angels,
Loud and clear.
I hope you’ll always try new things,
Never giving in to fear.

I hope you fall in love,
With one who makes your world go round.
I hope that if you fall out,
Your feet stay on the ground.

I hope that you can understand,
That true love waits for you.
That you may have to wait awhile,
But when it comes it will be true.

I hope you feel the sand,
Hot on you’re toes on summer’s day.
I hope you learn that sandals,
Help to keep the pain away.

I hope you find a rainbow,
And realize it was worth the rain.
I hope that through your journey,
You’ll learn to balance smiles with pains.

I hope that you will realize,
Life isn’t always on your side.
I hope you know when hope is lost,
In me you can confide.

I hope that your glowing smile,
Brings someone out of gloom.
I hope you taste your life,
With more than just a spoon.

I hope that when you’re lost,
You are also one to find.
And I hope that your hand,
Never grows too big for mine.

I hope you watch the stars shoot by,
Upon a grassy hill.
I hope you know I love you,
Always have and always will.

You are all of this to me....

You’re the thought that starts each morning,
The conclusion to each day.
You’re all in what I do,
And everything I say.

You’re the smile on my face,
The twinkle in my eye.
The warmth inside my heart,
The fullness in my life.

You’re the land that’s laced in mine,
And the coat upon my back.
My friend, my love,
My shoulder to lean on.

You’re my silly, mature, caring,
Thoughtful, bright and honest guy.
The one who holds me tightly,
When I need to cry.

You’re the dimple on my cheek,
The ever constant tingle in my soul.
The voice that makes me week,
The happiness of my life.

You’re all I’ve wanted.
You’re all I need.
You’re all I’ve dreamed of,
You’re all of this to me.

Why they are friends?

Because…they smile.
Because…they understand just by looking into your eyes.
Because…they finish your sentences and know what you like.
Because…they know you better than you know yourself.
Because…with them you aren’t afraid to be yourself.
Because…you can say something stupid or expose your deepest secrets to them.
Because…everything you do together becomes a memory.
Because…you don’t need to do something special to have fun…fun just happens.
Because…you don’t need to explain anything…they just know.
Because…they tell you the truth, no matter how much you’d rather not here it.
Because…they would do anything for you and get you out of trouble.
Because…they make you laugh harder than anyone.
Because…they are not afraid to put themselves on the line for you.
Because…you can trust them.
Because…they believe in your dreams, no matter how silly they may seem.
Because…they dry your tears.
Because…you are good enough when you are with them.
Because…they love you for who you really are.

TEENAGE LOVE

He loves me…he loves me not…
Love starts as an insignificant seed.
A wishful prayer,
A tiny fire,
A playful giggle,
A rosy blush,
A risky wink,
Or a kindly smile.

He loves me…he loves me not…
Friendship buds.
A tender understanding,
A growing warmth,
A gentle trust.

He loves me…he loves me not…
The bud opens its first petals to a pair of
Sparkling eyes
Which twinkle with a new
Passion.
A passion that overcomes all sense
Until finally
A risky chance is taken…

He loves me…he loves me not…
The rose opens into a
Beautiful, ruby blossom.
Everything else in the world becomes
Lost in a crazy, wild nonsense
A happy oblivion of exhilaration
Complete and total
Joy.

A sweet, innocent kiss
In the moonlight
Seals the mutual promises
Of never-ending fiddity.
Cherish.
Honor.
Protect.
Forever…or until

The blossom wilts,
And the petals fade,
And the promises break,
But the memories
Of sunlight and blue sky
Remain fragrant
Preserved in the petals
Of sachets
Stuffed in the back of your sock drawer 
And your heart.